"Early" life crisis?

Life is so strange. I always sit here and think – about what? – more like, what not about? My mind moves a million trillion miles an hour at all times and if I could think of a way to make it stop – I would.

I recently purchased a VERY large book of Suduko puzzles… Yep, 264 pages of "Easy to not so easy challenges" a.k.a constant mind stimulation. Do you know what this means? This means it's time for me to get a new hobby! Haha.

The past year has been an interesting one. I got through my first year of graduate school, met tons of people I will never forget and probably will never see again, had challenging experiences, had doubt in myself, spent time with a wonderful man that I adore, been to a lot of fun parties, camped in a lot of fun places….

It seems like just yesterday the leaves were turning different colors and the storms were rolling in for the start of the winter season. I can't believe summer is already over. It's so depressing. I hate the days after summer equinox when the days start getting shorter and everyone starts going into hibernation (including myself). I keep having the strangest dreams and feelings and can't help but think it's because I am going through withdrawals from summer.

Am I the only one that worries about getting older? Losing more and more friends each year versus gaining them? Everyone's getting older, building their own lives, spending time with their new single friends or new significant others… It makes me sad because if anything, one goal for me in life is to hold on to good friendships forever, because you never know when your clock will stop ticking - you never know when will be the last time you will see one of your closest friends. Everyone takes everything for granted – including me.

Time is unpredictable and I hate it. You could say I am a control freak – yeah, probably, but is it so much to ask to keep in touch with old friends? I guess people change. I've changed and will continue to change probably more than ever. I guess I am just going through an early life crisis… is there such a thing?